I dont begin to assume i know the will of God. I do know that for myself the myriad dogmatic and institutionalized rote packagings of what God wants rings incredibly hollow to me. I continually feel as if I have to suspend disbelief on a shark jumping scale to accept many of the premises around me, both in AA, amongst my friends and on tv.
What I *do actually know* is that when I am in the moment, present, living within a principle, I feel connected, clear, without fear. I have an understanding and compassion for others around me and an ability to help. In so doing, as conduit, I am fed as I offer those things to others - to everyone's benefit. *That's what i know.*

Everything else? Meh. Usually it's my ego having a grand ol time. Though I had to ask all those questions and try those hats on for size, often with complete earnestness, to get to where I am now so that i can continue to move forward. Perhaps to a place where I'll be dining on crow-infused humble pie. :^)